revisit

it has been more than a year i guess. why im here is only because im having doubts.

about what's next. now that i've been dating aisha for more than a year, i guess she's beginning to get bored of me. judging from the amount of time we spend away from each other.

im also having that familiar feeling from post korean sad drama watching. gaahhh why am i feeling this way. its like i gave up on love. bored from love. cos its not like what i've watched on tv/dramas. i dunno why am i feeling this way. like after poly, life has no definite path. i'm not sure what to do anymore. just counting days till i go in. sigh. how how how. i dunno how. i dunno what to say or do anymore. so many feelings in my heart. so many things to think about in my head. sigh if only someone would understand what im talking about.

abc..123..

i admit..

i dun really like being alone all the time..

but it doesnt mean u have to be by my side 24/7..

however, there are times i really feel neglected..

i've got no one to turn to..no one to talk to when im feeling down or lonely..

but i dun want to be apart from you.

cos i really really love you..

i dun want to be a hindrance but from the way you put it i really think that i am.

how? i dunno how to react now.

just be patient i guess..i'll try to stomach it all..

just only because i dun want to be with anyone else anymore other than you..

):

need somebody

i shall blog more dilligently..woots!
i have officially lost track of time. which could only mean that it is a potential recipe for disaster..
yay me! O.o

it was my bro's bday ytd..25th..a quarter of a century..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE! (even though there's not much chance u'll stumble upon this blog..heh)
im turning 21 in like 4 months time..wow..
cant wait for the free 200 bucks from gahment..heh

anyways she got back this afternoon..
glad she had a good time during her short getaway..
i wish i could go on one too..singapore is getting too much of a bore..
past few days was spent moping..talking to myself in the mirror..emoing..and drawing lots of circles and dots..HAHHAHA!
right! haha..nah!
been studying..playing gameboy games on the laptop..watching movies on the free viewing of all channels on cable..sleeping at 4am..
went out with her on saturday though..haha..
she got me cookies..and she made me a valentine's day card..
it made me super duper guilty cause i didnt get her anything for vday.. :(
got too occupied with assignments and projects and exams..gahh...shit..
sorry... :(

i'll think of something to return the gesture..hmm..


anyways i have been having weird dreams for past few nights..
must be too stressed up uh..hahaha!

UNITED VS MILAN TONIGHT! WOOTS! :D
WELCOME BACK BECKS!

woots stress!

i've been super busy with school,assignments and projects for the past semester.
and finally all these are coming to an end.
just deadlines to be met and exams to sit for.
after which i'll have my well deserved break.woots! :D

oh yeah...
i love Nur Laila Bte Abdul Jalal ttm! heh!

ramadhan

it suddenly got me thinking..
the month of ramadhan got me thinking about the past year..
all those i've wronged.
all those i've hurt.

i've got nothing but regret now..

"ku mengharapkan ramadhan kali ini penuh makna"

hopefully this time round i will not do anything that i'll regret in the future.
i really hope so

BIRTHDAY! ^^

WELL A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
FINALLY A BIG 2-0!
no more teen uh..sigh..
haha..oh well..

to my readers doakan yer?/do pray for me ok?
semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki..
amin..:D

HAHAHA! hopefully tmr nvr kena whack uh..:D

superglue

"If she's meant to be yours, it matters not where or how far she goes, nor does it matter that she's with someone else for the moment."

saw this quote on someone's facebook profile.
very meaningful i must say.

been very under the weather these few days.
today's temperature hit a scorching 38 degrees?
im down with headache and a bad shoulder and a bad tummy.
tmr training resumes.
hoepfully tomorrow will be a better day.. (:

i still want to be your superglue,
to mend ur broken smile.
if only i know what you're thinking.